Thursday, April 28, 2011

Miracles

We have struggled with infertility for the past 4 years. We tried nearly everything before deciding to pursue adoption. We put fertility treatments on hold and focused our efforts on becoming approved for adoption, which we were. During this time, as most everyone knows, I spent a lot of time in the hospital with my nephew and sister-in-law while my nephew underwent chemo and radiation therapies for cancer. I have no doubt in my mind that I was meant to be available to them. As hard as it was to go year after year with no success from our fertility treatments, etc., and then the wait after our approval, I know that had we been blessed with children prior to Ayden's diagnosis I would not have been able to help as much as I was able to, as much as I wanted to. Just before Ayden was admitted to the hospital for seizures, as a result of his cancer spreading to his brain, we had to place our adoption profile on hold. At this time we decided that we wanted to try to conceice again. We assumed we were going to need to use some sort of fertility drug, but before I could schedule the appointment we discovered I was pregnant. I a now nearly 16 weeks and loving every minute of it. I truly feel this is the result of many little miracles and blessings over the course of the last year. I can see now why we were not meant to have children prior to this point and I'm grateful for what the Lord can see that I cannot. I feel so blessed to be able to experience this pregnancy and cannot wait to experience it as it progresses. I look forward to holding this little one in my arms within a few weeks of October 15.