Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Jackson's Birth

Okay, so here is the story. Its pretty uneventful but I'm grateful for that. I had an OB appointment on Wednesday, October 12. While I was there my OB could see that I was ready to have my baby so he said we could talk induction, but first he had to check me. (I should point out that I was hoping to have my sweet Jackson on Friday, October 14. That had been y "goal" for about the last two months of my pregnancy. I was hoping he would induce me that day if I hadn't gone into labor.) So after checking me, I was only 1cm dialated and 70% effaced, he decided my cervix was not where he wanted it to be for an induction, so the plan was to come back on Friday to be checked again. At that appointment he was going to determine whether I would come in Sunday night to help my cervix soften or whether I would come in on Monday morning and go right to the pitocin. While he was checking my cervix my OB did strip my membranes. His goal was to encourage my cervix to finish softening so that at my Friday appointment he could tell me to come on in on Monday morning.

I went home from my appointment a little bummed, because I was hoping to be able to be induced on Friday. Neither my OB, nor myself expected stripping my membranes would do much. I spent the rest of the afternoon with small contractions, which I was told was common after having membranes stripped, but they went away as the day went on. They were completely gone by the time I went to bed.

Thursday morning I woke up and had breakfast, feeling pretty good. As the morning went on I started havin little contractions again. I decided to get up and start doing things around the house, so I vacuumed the house, stairs and all, swept and mopped the kitchen floor, did the dishes, etc. I would take breaks in between and noticed that my contractions were constant no matter what my activity level was, a good sign. I still didn't think I was actually in labor but I knew I was heading in the right direction and was hopeful that maybe I'd go into laor over the weekend.

The contractions continued, irregularly throughout the day. Right about the time Asher got home from school, around 7:30 my contractions started to become pretty regular and started to gain strength. We started timing them, they were coming about every five minutes and lasted anywhere from 45 to 80 seconds. I was instructed to call when they had been every five minutes or less and lasting 60 seconds or more for two consecutive hours. Around 8:30 I had about 7 minutes between contractions so we started over. About 8:45 I decided to take a shower, just in case. I would shout out to Asher when a contraction started and then when it ended. I got out of the shower and my contractions were really picking up in intensity. I got dressed and just laid on my left side. At that point I decided maybe we should call, even though it hadn't been two strait hours. While talking to the on-call service I had to pass the phone off to Asher due to the strength of my contractions. The on-call doctor called back about five minutes later and started asking Asher questions about my last appointment. She asked him about my cervix and he turned to ask me, I just held up my hand to tell him it would be a minute before I could answer. He told the doctor it would be a minute because I was having a contraction, and she asked "you can tell she's having a contraction just by looking at her?" He said yes, and she told us to just come on in, so we grabbed our bag and a few other things and headed out the door.

We got to the hospital about 10 or 10:15 and they took me up to L&D where they had my room ready for me. We went in, I changed, etc., the nurse checked my cervix (I was 4cm) and they decided I needed to drink lots of water and walk for an hour, just to make sure I wasn't just dehydrated because they didn't want to admit me just to have no progress and end up having to send me home. The nurse did make a point to tell me she didn't think I'd be going home, but they had to cover their bases. So I got a big cup of water, drank it all and refilled it before we started walking.

We walked down to the cafeteria, and back up to the maternity floor. We checked out where the nursery was and walked around the post partum wing stopping for each contraction. After about 45 minutes we went back to our room so I could use the restroom. I told them I didn't think I could keep walking and they said that was fine, they would check me again. I was 6cm. They admitted me in and got me all hooked up.

We settled into our room and I called my parents to let them know we'd been admitted and we'd call them when I was dilated to an 8 or 9. The doctor came in and checked me and then left to perform a c-section. Shortly after we got all hooked up the alarms at the nurses station kept going off signaling an issue with Jackson's heart rate. The nurse came in and would move the fetal heart monitor, because his heart rate was not dropping like the alarm was indicating. This happened several ties and then they realized he had an arhythmea. They kept adjusting the heart monitor for about another hour and then decided to place an internal monitor.

I had been planning on and epidural but had to wait until the nurse anesthetician was finished with the c-section. I was given someting through my iv to help take the edge off. It was around midnight at this point. At 1 the nurse anesthetician came in to give me my epidural, he tried for an hour but couldn't get it in, so he decided we both needed a break and said he would come back later. Around 3 or 4, he came back to try again, after about 10 tries he finally got the epidural in. It only worked on one side and then wore off after about 2 hours. Between epidural attempts the nurse checked me again and I was dilated to an 8/9 and she broke my water so we called my parents and let them know. When she broke my water she told me there was meconium in the fluid, he was ready to come.

After a while the doctor came back in to check me again. I was still at an 8/9, and had been for a few hours. The doctor said she thought I would have had the baby hours ago, so she was going to put in a call to my OB and the OB that was coming in to replace her to discuss c-section. As soon as she left the room I started crying. I didn't go all night just to end up in a c-section. The doctor came back and decided to place something that would register the strength of my contractions more accurately. The nurses place the device, then turned me on my left side. Then came shift change. My new nurses decided that they were going to try moving me to my right side to see if that might push me that last little bit. Meanwhile my parents had arrived and been in to say hi, a couple of times, and were now waiting in the waiting room. Asher had gone out after the c-section was mentioned to fill them in and my grandma had just arrived with breakfast and my sister was on her way. My family didn't get another update.

After about 45 minutes on my right side I felt a REALLY strong urge to push, (I'd been fighting the urge for about 2 hours) and Asher went and told one of my nurses. She came in and checked me and declared I could push, thank goodness! I pushed a few times and then the new OB came in and everything started happening really fast. (I was thrilled because at this point I'd been awake for about 24 hours) They dropped the foot of the bed, and got me ready. Jacksons nurses came in as well as the respiratory team, since there was meconium in the amniotic fluid. I pushed for 10 minutes and out he came. He gasped at first, but then was able to breath on his own. They inserted a tube into his stomach to clear it of any meconium he may have swallowed but it came out clear. Yay! There were no complications as a result of the meconium. He was covered in green yuck, so his nurses cleaned him up before I held him while the doctor finished with me. I had to let the doctor know I could feel everything as she started to stitch me, ouch, and she looked up surprised and assured me they would give me a local then.



When they were done with me, Asher went and told my family and they all came in to meet the newest addition. The last baby born in my family was ten years before, so everyone was eager to meet Jackson. They visited and loved on Jackson until they came to take him to the nursery to warm him up. My niece and nephews and my brother-in-law showed up just as they were taking Jackson to the nursery and got to see him real quick before coming to say hi to me. Everyone left and I was taken to my post partum room where I waited for Asher to come back from the nursery. It was about 10 or 11 at this point so we ordered breakfast and ate. Right after we ate the nursery called to let Asher know they were going to give Jackson his first bath so he left me to go do that. The rest of the day was filled with visitors and getting to know our sweet little boy.


Monday, December 12, 2011



I will do a birth story eventually. Until then, here is a photo of the billboard advertisement Jacksons photo was picked for. It was up for one week.

Friday, October 28, 2011

Monday, August 22, 2011

Let the crazy begin...

Asher starts another semester of school today...its not going to be fun for either of us. He has classes 4 evenings a week, which means he leaves every morning at 4:30 and won't be home until after 7 in the evening. He is beginning this just 8 weeks before our precious baby is due to arrive, our first, which will make it that much crazier. I'm trying my hardest to not let my anxiety over this crazy schedule show because I want to be as supportive and encouraging to Asher as possible, I know its not going to be easy on him. As a way to spend a little extra time together, I am getting up with him at 3:50 to keep him company while he gets ready and have a little breakfast with him. This semester will definitely test us, but I know it will be worth it. Asher will be that much closer to his degree (even though there is still many more semesters to go), and he is doing it while solely providing for our family which is something to be proud of. Thank goodness for family and friends close by, we will definitely need their help through this crazy semester and period of adjustment to parenting.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

I just have to say I have loved knowing that we're having a boy. I never thought any different, but having the confirmation rom the ultrasound has made a huge difference. I am really enjoying calling our boy by name. I can't wait to see what kind of personality he is going to have.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Its a Blue World for Us

We had our big ultrasound today, and its quite obvious, its a BOY! I can't wait to start shopping and really planning for our little man. : )

Thursday, April 28, 2011

Miracles

We have struggled with infertility for the past 4 years. We tried nearly everything before deciding to pursue adoption. We put fertility treatments on hold and focused our efforts on becoming approved for adoption, which we were. During this time, as most everyone knows, I spent a lot of time in the hospital with my nephew and sister-in-law while my nephew underwent chemo and radiation therapies for cancer. I have no doubt in my mind that I was meant to be available to them. As hard as it was to go year after year with no success from our fertility treatments, etc., and then the wait after our approval, I know that had we been blessed with children prior to Ayden's diagnosis I would not have been able to help as much as I was able to, as much as I wanted to. Just before Ayden was admitted to the hospital for seizures, as a result of his cancer spreading to his brain, we had to place our adoption profile on hold. At this time we decided that we wanted to try to conceice again. We assumed we were going to need to use some sort of fertility drug, but before I could schedule the appointment we discovered I was pregnant. I a now nearly 16 weeks and loving every minute of it. I truly feel this is the result of many little miracles and blessings over the course of the last year. I can see now why we were not meant to have children prior to this point and I'm grateful for what the Lord can see that I cannot. I feel so blessed to be able to experience this pregnancy and cannot wait to experience it as it progresses. I look forward to holding this little one in my arms within a few weeks of October 15.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

So far 2011 is shaping up to be a pretty good year. We still think about our little buddy Ayden all of the time, I don't expect that to ever change. We love that little superman so much and can't wait to see him again someday.

We have had a few changes around our house. I quit my job in February so I am now a housewife. The decision didn't come lightly and it won't be without some trial, as we are down to one income, but it was a necessary decision. My plan is to (finally) start teaching piano to beginner students to help supplement our income. It will be nice because I will be at home and when we welcome a baby into our home it won't require major adjustments.

Really, aside from quitting my job things have been pretty casual for us. We hang out with friends and family on the weekend. Asher is busy with school and work during the week and I try to find things to keep myself busy. Really there's plenty for me to do, its just getting into the groove of things. I'm sure I'll get there but part of me just wants to be really lazy for a little while.

Anyway, we will have some more changes coming over the next few months but I'll post about them as they come.

Friday, January 14, 2011

2010

What can I say? 2010 was filled with many ups and downs. A part of me whishes it would have never ended, and yet I'm glad to see it go. We spent the first half of the year focused on getting our approval for adoption. I spent a good portion of that time and into the second half of the year at the children's hospital here in town with my sister(-in-law), nephew and niece while my nephew went through chemo and radiation therapy. The majority of that time was filled with ups.

We were approved for adoption, our nephew was responding well to his treatments. In October we experienced some hardships and had to place our adoption profile on hold for a bit. In November we found out our sweet nephew's cancer had spread to his brain. At that time we were told there was no hope for recovery. He spent several weeks in a medically induced coma. When he awoke he could no longer speak or walk and had very little control over his arms but he could smile, and it was beautiful. We were witnesses to several miracles and knew that he would be taken care of. As a family we knew that he would not be with us much longer but didn't know how much time we would have with him. On December 29 he was taken home to his Heavenly Father, where he joined some of his great-grandparents and his aunt Sarah. While we have a void in our lives where he once filled, we know where he is, that he is not alone, and that we will see him again.

So, I wish I could go back to the first half of the year of 2010 so I could enjoy my time with that sweet little boy and I could continue with our approval to adopt, but I look forward to this new year when we will be able to re-activate our profile and continue on our journey to adoption and we will be able to start a new life without our sweet Ayden while honoring his memory.

I hope 2011 will live up to it's potential and that we will get to experience the joy life has to offer.